Anxiety Buried

Dear God
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
Courage to change those that I can
And the wisdom to know the difference

It turned out

That I did change what I could

And the Devil's pact was an Angel's blessing

And it wasn't my talents that saved me

But my own skills at dealing with the situation

Victory tastes sweet nonetheless

There's still the irony

Of the angel being in blood red that morning

But you can't expect life to be all that dramatic

So now I'm back

For sure

Free from my past obligation

Only needing to repay the blessing, nothing more

Anxiety Dead

Finally

Good news for a change

Surprisingly

After suffering so much

Salvation did not come as a celebration

But merely a relief

How ironic

At a school that is supposedly holy

I signed the Devil's pact

Sold my soul just to stay in place

What is it?

Tomorrow will tell.

Heh, at least I'm staying.

Maybe that's all that matters.

Or is it?




Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

Fatal Anxiety

Time to face the alternate possibility.

Tried my luck on other grounds.

Still

Am I being rejected?

By the very people I hold dear?

"Where the treasure is,

is where your heart belongs."

They say life is a roller coaster

Full of ups and downs.

Actually

Life is a suicidal freefall

Everything just passes by quickly

You just keep going down

And in the end, you know you'll just die.

So what exactly is the point?

Murderous Anxiety

Orientation two this morning.

Sure cheered up the mood a bit.

But

Two days, still no news.

Tick tock tick tock.

Three days more to tick.

The ticking will soon stop.

Where will I be after that?

Anxiety

The weekend has passed.

A call of false hope.

But

Nothing is certain yet.

Another day passed.

Still nothing.

Will I stay?

Tomorrow will tell.

I hope.

Posting

Nothing is ok

But

Yishun?

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